When someone’s life and well-being is at risk, everything else pales in comparison. You start to see what is truly important. Isn’t it a pity that we can’t always do the same for ourselves?
This is something that I have meaning to do for quite a while. I have witnessed so many people deeply affected by anxiety, depression and poor self-esteem and mental health problems. I feel it. A sense of desperation and hopelessness, of feeling confused, lost and maybe broken. Suicide rates are on the rise yet we never really see them coming, no matter how many signs are right in front of us.
No matter how important or special you are in the eyes of others, if you have no self-worth you can feel like nothing. Like an imposter walking the earth, stealing a life and the opportunity for happiness, love and success. Like you were never meant for this earth. As if your very existence is a burden on all those around you. Maybe you have thought about ending it all but you haven’t been able to bring yourself to do it because you know it will hurt people and damage them. You want to stop existing, but you can’t because you do exist and people will notice if you disappear.
There is so much stigma around mental health and suicide and such a lack of understanding that it is often referred to as “selfish” or compared unfavourably to terminal illnesses as a “choice”. Yes a person can choose to end their lives, but they did not choose to feel that way and it is not something that should be natural for any human being to even consider. As for the selfish thing, I understand how it could be seen as an easy way out, while leaving everyone else in complete turmoil but there is rarely rational thinking involved.
It’s entirely possible that you are so wrapped up in these thoughts you might not even see past yourself or your potential actions.
I am saying now, stop. The most important part of this is that you are not alone, and there is help available to you. It is my hope that you can find a way out of your thoughts and I implore anyone that feels very depressed to reach out for help. You are a person of worth, you are not the person that you have created in your head. We have a spark in us, if only we could see it all the time.
You are so loved.
Your happiness, your laughter, your sense of humour, wonder, love and hope are all truths. You can rise above your illness. This is a message that belongs to so many people and could relate to anyone, anywhere at any time.
It’s going to take time and it’s going to be a struggle but if you are patient you will reach that light at the end of the tunnel. There are a million different forms of therapy and you will find one to suit you. There are free services available, you just need to pick up the phone and make that first step. There are free helplines such as:
National Counselling Service 1800234112
You probably wouldn’t ignore a heart attack so why are you ignoring these attacks on your mind? Though the world can seem such a cruel place to live in, it can also be a wonderful place if we remember what’s truly important and support one another. One person may not be able to change the world, but we can all make an impact, however miniscule it may seem and if we come together, who knows what incredible things might happen.
For more from Kate visit her blog Always Make Way For The Rainbow